Day of Reflection

Wednesday, a day that I usually find myself spinning in circles, I spent in reflection. Typically I try to find stuff to do to preoccupy my time, but this day I couldn't seem to get going. I walked out the back door of the church and kept walking. Gladeville is mostly farm land so I just began to walk. As I was walking I was drawn to just talk to God. The wind was blowing the tall grass left to right and it felt as God was just telling me to just spend time with Him without rules attached to it. This morning in waffle house it seemed as God was telling me the same thing as we began talking about our time with God. So how do we get away from the duty of spending time with Him through His Word to spending time with Him through His Word because we love to? Are the expectations to high or to low? Do I need a specific time or a routine? I am not sure if I am good with routines, but it maybe a good thing. Then again does that lead to duty? Somehow and in some way I need to break the cycle.

Making God's Word alive in us is something we all desire to do. To learn to love His Word and meditate on it. Maybe a break in the cycle is doing something out of the ordinary. Maybe it is developing a plan that is not governed by what someone else might have told us about studying the bible. I am not saying those are bad, because I do see great value in them and appreciate them, but maybe God is not leading us down that path. Just some food for thought. My prayer is that we will all become passionate about how we spend our time with the Father.

Day of Reflection

Wednesday, a day that I usually find myself spinning in circles, I spent in reflection. Typically I try to find stuff to do to preoccupy my time, but this day I couldn't seem to get going. I walked out the back door of the church and kept walking. Gladeville is mostly farm land so I just began to walk. As I was walking I was drawn to just talk to God. The wind was blowing the tall grass left to right and it felt as God was just telling me to just spend time with Him without rules attached to it. This morning in waffle house it seemed as God was telling me the same thing as we began talking about our time with God. So how do we get away from the duty of spending time with Him through His Word to spending time with Him through His Word because we love to? Are the expectations to high or to low? Do I need a specific time or a routine? I am not sure if I am good with routines, but it maybe a good thing. Then again does that lead to duty? Somehow and in some way I need to break the cycle.

Making God's Word alive in us is something we all desire to do. To learn to love His Word and meditate on it. Maybe a break in the cycle is doing something out of the ordinary. Maybe it is developing a plan that is not governed by what someone else might have told us about studying the bible. I am not saying those are bad, because I do see great value in them and appreciate them, but maybe God is not leading us down that path. Just some food for thought. My prayer is that we will all become passionate about how we spend our time with the Father.

The Absence of God

As I was trying to pray this morning I felt this huge wall between the Father and I. At first it might have been me feeling depressed and lonely, but I think it was more about my own selfishness. I believe when I began to concern myself with the issues of others and not my own desires God began to open himself up to me. I want my life to be guided by him, but I realized today that I really need to concern myself with others. I think so much of my time is spent worrying about where I am going, where I am headed or who's looking out for me instead of actually caring about you all, my wife, the person who just lost a loved one in Myanmar or the person who is eating dinner by themselves looking for community. I don't know if this makes sense, but it was just something I was thinking about.

Thanks for being a part of my life. I know I don't I pray for you all nearly enough and for that I apologize, but I truly appreciate who you are and what you teach me about myself and a life with Christ.

See you in the morning